… jumping in front of a train

This possibly could have been a television movie and most likely shown on Channel 4, sometime between 2001 – 2004 (otherwise BBC or ITV1). It was English language and colour, however I can’t recall the aspect ratio or much else.

My only memories of the plot consist of a bullied teenage guy who is in a poor relationship with his father (possibly abused by him but I cannot remember exactly). I think he climbs out of a side window to escape the house on a regular basis so his father doesn’t know he’s going out.

Early on we see the interaction between the guy and local thugs who tease and bully him on a daily basis.

We are then introduced to a blond? girl who possibly saves him from the thugs or shooed them off etc.

Whatever happens between then and scenes where the guy shows the girl his secret hide/camp, that he has built and furnished I can’t recall.

Eventually between further scenes (shown only through windows from the outside of the house with audio) of the scraps/abuse between the guy and his father mixed with the guy continually meeting the girl again, they inevitably fall in love and share their bodies with another on the ground within the hide/camp.

However the ending is not a happy one with increased tensions between the guy and his father. I seem to recall the guy possibly intending to murder his father but it didn’t happen or something else happened, again conflicting memories. The guy climbs a tall brick wall fronting a railway line and we see him jump from the top of the wall into an oncoming train.

The girl not knowing what has become of her lover, while I believe she waited for him within the hide, visits the father and learns of the suicide, which is where I recall the film ended.

Any ideas? It was certainly an interesting time as a teenager with just 4 analogue terrestrial channels available. Channel 4 was a disturbingly adult resource staying up late nights with your own bedroom tv, albeit a 14 inch CRT! There were some really messed up films I came upon, often midway through or just catching the tail end and it never made sense at the time to look in the tv guide, teletext etc to know what it actually was… There was Larry Clark’s Kids for instance… then again also TV specials / films like the “Adult at 14 season” film Pleasureland in 2003. I’ll probably never shake off that memory of a sickening short film based on Red Riding Hood from around that time either. Good times Channel 4, good times.